My Dear Girls,
You have been on my mind a lot lately. Everywhere I go and anything I do there are children all around. I will be ready to adopt in four to five years and I wonder all the time if you have been born yet and where you are. I pray that you are safe.
Sometimes I just miss you all so much that my heart literally hurts. I want to tuck you into bed at night, I want to go on fun adventures with you, help you with your homework and take all of your pain away.
Knowing that I am not your biological mother means that you have been through more pain in your short life than I have already. I try not to think about all of the different reasons that could cause you to need a family because all are so sad. I have been preparing my heart for a long time to parent souls that have been through great trauma and I feel ready. The wait is so hard, but I know that the payoff will be so sweet.
I have wanted you all and known what my family was supposed to look like for half my life now. Each of you has a piece of my heart that is missing until we are finally together. The ache is dull and constant. Ever since I knew that my purpose in life is to be a mother, I have been waiting until the time is right.
If there's one thing I want you to know now it is that I thought of each of you every single day for years and years before you were ever in my arms. You were wanted, desperately, completely and unconditionally.
We are all on our own journeys right now. Some of us not even yet born. We will be united one day and we were meant to be a family.
I love you so much,
Mom
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